Posted by: Kathryn Craig | April 18, 2009

Beach Glass

beachglassI love walking the beach for the calm it invites in my life, for the perspective it gives me and for the beauty and treasure found in simple detail. And I especially preserve delight in uncovering the quiet splendor in a shard of beach glass.

What is it about a forsaken fragment of what it was meant to be to be… cast off, useless, inconvenient and neglected, that time and abrasion transform it into a highly prized gem? It’s the scuffs and scrapes that develop this jewel, its imperfections that provide its individuality and beauty.

As I walked the abandoned beach last week, amidst the pebbles and smooth rocks I spied my first slice of beach glass of the season. Treasure! As I reached down to claim my jewel it suddenly suggested to me… Connor is my beach glass.

My dream and expectations for what he might have been has changed. But who am I to determine in my dreams what he should have been, what he could have been? I live with who he is. Beauty on a beach of pebbles. Blending in, but standing out. Glowing in his uniquely frosted patina… sometimes tossed, sometimes tumbled by life, but strengthened by the process.

It’s his individuality that shines in the sun.
I’m grateful for the treasure that resides in Connor.

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The Lord your God has chosen you out of all the peoples on the face of the earth, his treasured possession. The Lord did not set his affection on you and choose you because you were more numerous than other peoples, for you were the fewest of all peoples.  But it was because the Lord loved you. Deuteronomy 7.6-8

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Responses

  1. love it! Thank you :)…..miss you!!

  2. So, I just now found out you have this blog.. Thanks. How many entries do I have to catch up on?? I better get a box of tissues!

    This was beautiful!

  3. Such profound wisdom! I found my way to your blog looking for “beach treasure” and leave it with tears in my eyes. Connor must be an amazing gift to his loved ones!

  4. Hi Kathy,
    I hope one day to find meaning and peace with the situation as you so clearly have.
    I have a 5yr old son with DS who i cant help wondering what would have become of him if not for the extra XY.
    I’m tired of questioning and asking God why? But i loved the Deut 7 6-8 quote… it adds some more perspective.
    Thanks for sharing your experience. At leats i know what to look forward to . My son by the way is delightful ,funny, capricious and also flexible…
    keep up the good work.


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